sorry, long post full of rants

for the first time in my life
really
i slept in the afternoon
Oo
but i slept at 10pm yesterday
and i even woke up late today
how can i still be tired

3 more days.
i saw the bus 154 at clementi
0154
fifth table from the front
scary

i asked laoshi if i can get a1
and she said all along i can
but all of a sudden i 松懈下来
and she said i was better when im in sec 3
but i tot my midyear result was actually better
omg
might as well throw me into the sea
i wan to do it once and do it well
but im scared i cant make it
one o level to kill me
this is the only subject i can aim for A
but i wan a A1. not a 2
jus 3 more days wat else can i do please?
jus did a 报章报道 and i think its super badly done
and i even exceed the time by 15min
argh
while u guys are looking forward to holidays
we are looking forward to our O (:
我始终无法把以前的华文气息带回来，对不起，但
老师的幸运棒棒糖，学校送的饼干， 请让我顺利过关，
以前是我咎由自取，但愿这次努力不会落空，希望不会转成失望。
拜托。我已经感觉到，我对华文的热爱渐渐离我而去。
i jus couldnt get it back.

im seriously anti social
really.
they are people i have know for quite long already
yet when i see them
i have nothing to say
i cant even bring myself to greet them
rude

plus
i have ultra split personality
let me think
in front parents, 1
in front of siblings with parents, 2
in front of siblings without parents, 3
in front of relatives, 4
in front of friends, 5
in front of special friends, 6
in front of schmates online, 7
in front of friends online, 8 9
in front of ppl i donno online, 10 [maple i mean..]
i behave totally differently in these cases
i have no idea why
its jus natural for me?
wth
stop the nonsense
volcano eruption

im retaking p.geog, ss, lit
NO!!! i don wan take ss and lit
ss fail then fail la
f9 then f9 la
lit c6 then c6 la
i jus wan to care about geog can?
im going to mug like siao again for my geog
die oso must pass
die oso must get A for o level