yes i have been studying these two days..
BUT
im super distracted while studying
halfway go watch tv
listen to music while doing
chat with ppl
smsing..
bleah
i donno why am i doing all these
when im suppose to be studying!!
i don understand a thing abt pressure in phy
but i know the formulae
and donno when to use them
jus like the stupid identities in amaths
they are like..
cant stand it
how to score like tt
my amaths and phy suxs
how i wish i can stop studying
i once said i don mind exams
but currently
im having serious problem
that i have so many topics of assessment book not done
cannot finish one lor
got to pick topics again?
i practically picked topic for every subject
which is not a good thing!!

there are things i say but they arent true
i can say things
so as to not make ppl feel so bad
i can say things
so that they wont think that they are the worst
i can even say things
to make they feel that 'theres someone worst than me'
but sometimes they arent really true
but as long as
they feel better
i think its worth
oh well..
its better to make them feel better
that allow them to work harder doesnt it..?
but if it made them feel proud
i rather not do anything..
let them feel sad.. let them feel that they are the worst
even so.. i don wan them to feel proud coz theres someone worst
its totally different
depending on that person

i was reminded of this
that time
moni actually could say
how i react when im angry
and it was really true
i thought no one will know?
i thought they cant tell my emotion?
i don even know that they know who i actually am
but moni did
moni know how i will react to things
that make me angry or happy..
moni make me feel that like
'hey.. someone understand u..'
well.. about the other ugs.. im not sure
but moni made me feel great
she also said how my laughter actually made them laugh
i never realise it at first
i actually thought
im jus another person beside them who wont make a difference
but she made me realise
im not
im not..
it will surely be different without me around
didnt know my laughter could be spreaded
but provided i really laughed out