hell..
life is like.. omg

seriously
that was not my ability
it was not..
i believed so..
i dare say
i can do so much better than that
wth
cant they jus stop saying that
keep saying wat im so smart watever?
hello its jus a few subjects that i can do well?
onli one or two more like it..
my 'well' or 'good' is actually a1
so everyone who understands me..
shld know that i don think im doing well at all
but seems like no one did..
i got like 19 for l1r5 for jus a common test?
and they say i did very well
imagine i get that result for o level
i will jus die..
19!!
and soap say that we shld aim for a 10
im so far off those targets
im really really not doing well at all
but i know i can do much better
coz last time
my 'study' and 'revisions' are
read tb and ppt..
and the results i get will be b and c..
but this time
this time...
i actually did quite alot of practices..
and i can actually spend one whole day on a subject
i believe it will help
totally..
but the problem is that
i don think my results will be of much difference this time
coz i started quite late..
i donno if its considered late to others
but i think its quite late..

example emaths today
its was totally retarded!!
qn from cedar sec 4 prelims came out for our paper!?
and the revision ws ms lin gave
it was exactly the same!!
the prelims one was easy la..
but the revision ws that qn
i understand but i donno my ans right anot
coz i didnt even on my tablet
and cant check ans..
THEREFORE
i shld have done more practices!!!!
...

but its really..
no point talking about it?
i shld start practicing
ha..
see my change of words
last time i will say 'study'
now i say 'practice'
practice makes perfect
i have proven it true
(:
next year..
i must do well
i wan to break my record
of keeping my promise
i always make promise with myself
yet i forget about it
i always think that
there is still time for me to do it
but until one fine day
my dateline was even over
i didnt even kept a tiny bit of my promise
such a disappointment of me..

but im quite proud that
i stayed in school till so late
to do my work
and practices
and revision and stuff
how i wish that
the library opens everyday till 9 or 10
for the sec 4s
how i wish we can stay till so late too
how i wish the school can open till 9 or 10 too
and how i wish we have a hostel right beside our sch
how i wish my study partners can stay out late to study together

aiya
not possible
and actually i don mind exams
i don mind sitting down there for more than an hour
answering those qns and stuff
coz
when i study
i know how to do them
but my time management i donno why..
i cant really finish my papers..
im like ranting abt random craps?
back to studying
gonna study geog the whole day tml