finally
i decided to blog
this shall be an extrememly long post
if u are bored, u can jus go away

thx jeanne and peiyi for the hugx
made me feel better..much better
thx fiona for the talk
=)
thx UG for standing by my side when
i cried like hell for chi..
thx shuqiao for saying that
"no point continuing higher chi if it will
pull ur marks down"
i found it useful..at least i might not
feel so sad if i cannot make it to higher chi

thx soap for forcing me to cry
though i didnt
thx shuqiao for comforting me
i will NOT cry =)
thx everyone..

my results were horrible
will i even get into tri sci??
my dream...
and higher chi??
my onli hope for language
i donno wat happen...
i flunked my exams this time
was it that the papers were hard?
or was it that i didnt study hard enough??
or even was it that im simply stupid..

face the fact..
its all true..
truth that cannot be changed
by anything..
it will never be changed
so wat can i do??
crying cannot change any thing
not even the slightest..

wed
yay..the whole morning was slack
watching wat anti drug thing?!?!
like..wth..
actually i cant remember much..
kind of falling asleep??
but i remember something =)
kiddOx = ganjagod = ganja = cannabis
ganja make ur
heart rate increase
cause hallucination..
wow..
kiddo...lolx
out of point

then we got back..papers??
sianz
lets see..
first is sci
wow
amazing~~
onli A2..
i depended so much on my sci!!
i know my maths cannot make it..
i left so many blanks for my maths
and i tot i can replace the lost marks for maths
in my sci
now..
cant any more..
yes and i cried..
i didnt know if i can score well for my maths
wat if i cant?!?
then i cant even get a A1 for maths and sci??

my eng was as usual..
C6..

chi..
made me cry like hell...
this is the first time
the very first time..
i failed my chi paper 2..
wat happened?!?
2/10 for zong he tian kong??
..
jus nice a pass for my compo..
...
lucky got listening..
make my overall chi final year pass
by 0.7 marks..
wth..

thurs
i decided not to cry today..
but i got back my maths..
i felt horrible inside me..
not even an A2..
onli a B3
wat have i been doing??
do finish the whole assessment bk
getting this kind of result..
did i deserve it??
or because i did not do enough?
i don wan to cry
i tried to force the tears back
i tried to control myself
why shld i cry over it??
cannot make it then cannot make it la..
forget it!!
and soap keep asking me to cry out..
like forcing me to cry..
i don wanna cry ok..
at least shuqiao better..
jus ask me to cry if i really wan to
pls..i didnt wan to cry
and i did not

hmm..lit
it wasnt expected..
11/25
15/25
15/25
the 15 were ok..
but..11.. fail??
it was the unseen..
don wanna say much..

erm dnt??
the most "USEFUL" sub of all
got 31/40
its all because of the drawing that pulled me up
or else, onli theory
will die
overall dnt got 70
watever la..not useful anyway

lastly..
history
it was totally horrible
mcq 15/20
concept 2/5
the onli person in class who failed it!!
SEQ + SBQ 40/75
that is crap ok..
one qn, i wrote 3 para, 7 marks
7 ok!!
another qn, 1 whole pg, 1 mark
-.-
3 para 7 marks
1 page 1 mark
*stare at the paper...
*blink once or twice
WTH!!!!
this is total crap!!
the whole paper i don have enough time to finish
so i half half finish each qn
at least wont get 0
but 3 para 7 marks!!
i know that qn that i got 1 mark
i know the whole thing was wrong
i forgot to put why it was unreliable
i forgot to cross refer
i forgot to do everything
nvm..
at least i passed
at least i did..

yay!!
after that we played uno, cheat, heart attack
lol
brina, xiwen, fiona, jieen, soap, me, ka
^^
at least it distracted me from the results
but
halfway through,
gel give out the streaming thing
made my heart drop

will i ever make it into tri sci and higher chinese?
im scared..
pls..i jus wanna know if i can get in or not
this is torturing me..

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